Hail Thyself

I’m proud of myself this week, it hasn’t been an easy one. I never expected Glenn to break up with me, especially not over text. I also got some disappointing news from the TMS research study I was supposed to participate in saying I was no longer eligible based on the way I answered my questionnaire. So I’ve definitely had some disappointments this week. I’m proud of myself for not giving into the sadness, my therapist agreed I’ve been acting very adaptively. The night Glenn broke up with me I downloaded a dating app and went to bed at 8:30 because it was too painful for me to stay awake, and that’s okay. The next day I got up at my usual time, I did my positive affirmations, yoga and meditation and went to work as normal. I kept that going all week, I didn’t let the depression win.

Now I’m still not feeling super great about myself, common after someone decides they don’t want to be with you anymore. I’m really bummed out at the thought of being alone for Valentine’s day for the first time in years. But I got my eyebrows done yesterday, I’m getting a mani, pedi Sunday. I’m just going to take care of myself. I was supposed to technically have a date with a new dude tonight, but I forgot I also had my meeting to do so I had to reschedule. The meeting will be good though, I’m dj battling one of the other faciliators before the meeting and then it’s our normal “Hail Yourself” meeting where we discuss things that we are proud that we accomplished throughout the week. This week hasn’t been an easy one, but I’m doing what I can to keep myself going and I hail myself for that!